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It woke me up with the silly feeling that I will be seeing you again soon. Forgive me for using the word ‘silly’ because I don’t have any logical means to make it happen without putting you to a ton of pains.



How long has it been now? I hope you have not been counting, because I haven't. If time lost is time I owe you-- I will forever be indebted. Let me pay you in love when we meet again. Though I can never pay you enough, I promise, I’ll pay you as immensely as possible. 

I’ll also pay you by not hurting the people you love and by waiting for the right time. 

When we meet again, you can charge me for all my shortcomings. I’ll pay you with my two ears so that I can listen to things you’ve been wanting to tell me. I’ll pay you with my two arms ready to embrace you. 

When we meet again, I’ll pay you with all the remaining time of my life. And I'll keep paying you until my heart beats its last.

When you see me and you burst into tears, please hide your face on my chest because I can’t bear to see you hurt. If you’re angry with me and ask me why I was absentee, can I just keep it in me and ask you to forgive me?

If seeing you again doesn’t happen in my lifetime, I’ll make sure I’ll watch over you everyday from wherever I will be.

I love you, Sofia.

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